I recently just had my second abortion in 9 months . We had to open up the conversation we thought was closed and re-examine our marriage and family. Im stressed and feel so alone. I knew in my heart that I didnt want to let it go. I know one day when everything is settled down and fine she/he will come again and Ill be more prepared. January 22, 2021 - The anniversary of Roe v Wade - 48 years of legal abortion in all fifty states. I want to help the conversation start on a different platform and educate. I was clearly going to get my period. From a mother's letter to her aborted child: "It's been a decade and still my blood runs cold and I catch my breath whenever I hear the word " abortion." Space there is an emptiness inside of me that can never be filled, a chill that has never quite been warned, a grief that will Continue reading "A Mother's Letter to Her Aborted Baby" Published by Family Friend Poems March 2017 with permission of the author. Youre feelings and emotions emulate mine. I took a test when i got home from work and sure enough i was. Leet had an abortion at age 15 in the early 1980s. I open it and see two pictures of you. My advice to you would be do it if YOU want to, dont let nobody not your parents or partner tell you what to do, take some time and think about it because it is a situation that stays with you forever. I pray for you, and your baby. Please look into and join the face book group I Regret My Abortion there is a logo of a rainbow. Hey, came across this after searching for something to resonate with how I feel. I tell you where eats 4 in a table, there is always a place for a fifth one. When I found out I was pregnant, was overcome with fear. You were there, so was my existence. My and my husband have been diagnosed with infertility. Jessa Duggar Seewald, best known for her role on the TLC reality show "19 Kids and Counting," recently shared in a YouTube video that she miscarried what would have been her fifth child. We were in this sad nightmare together, weren't we? The Baby Must Be. This moved me. I was 6 weeks when I went for an ultrasound .. and all I saw was a small blob that I referred to as my nugget. My advice to you would be to remember that at the end of the day, and your life, you have to be able to live with yourself, so forget about what your partner wants and do what is right for you. i know my baby will be returned to me, someday. I dont know what to do. I told my cousin and she said that his name sounded familiar and asked around. Now, Im regretting every single day of my life. Pro . A Hand Yet To Hold By I am thinking of you xx. He told me to decide between him and the baby and he would leave. Im maybe 3-5 weeks pregnant but already feel attached. Davis, a mother of three, is fundraising online to cover the cost of traveling out of state to get an abortion. Maybe you think no one understands. I always thought she would come back to me somehow but only in my sleeping dreams and waking thoughts. There arent any protesters out that day and Im grateful. What if I was never able to get back on track with school and start my career? They told me to think about what I wanted to do and that theyd support me regardless of my choice. Tears and snot are running down my face as I write this, I have 2 beautiful little girls after this and it hasnt got any better. This brings me to a previous pregnancy right before this in which I unfortunately miscarried. I hope she can forgive me. Top Poems One abortion opponent testified that people in her life had . I had gone off my birth control a year prior and I didnt get my period for six months; then once I did, they were not predictable: they always came, but my cycle wasnt steady. Fathers should never be bored of their children. My apt is tomo And I dont want to go. I know my mum will be so happy and that breaks my heart because I have to see the joy I could have given and shared with my mum but being shared with my sister and it hurts so much. More than I want good . Maybe they never will. I prayed on it and as days went on my baby grew inside me but my symptoms from the pregnancy and the disease increased. I was 14 weeks with two boys already. I PRAY my baby forgives me for being weak And she comes back to me. You were my everything. All I could say was 'I'm sorry, I'm sorry, baby, I'm sorry.' As a mother, you never, ever, ever forget. Days away from her second abortion, she wrote that getting the abortion is the "right decision for myself, my daughter, and this child." And then I blurt out, without any grace, and much louder than I intend, Im pregnant. His eyes get wide as frisbees and he says, Wait. Some in the anti-abortion movement use the song, or . Colorado. Immediately after I felt relief that I was not constantly nauseous and I could eat again. We were told if we wanted children we would have to make a concerned effort. But tbh, by that point in our unhealthy relationship I had enough resentments of my own towards him to really care much. Im a working fulltime mom Ive always been morally against abortions Ive always advocated against them and here I am having to contemplate one. Good luck on your decision if you havent made up your mind yet but no matter what, I am sure it will be the best decision for you. I need to get a surgical abortion on Monday and he cant even decide if he wants to come and support me. He walks into the front room while I am mid-stand, so thats how I greet him. I saw a tarot reader 2 years ago and they brought him up and told me he forgave me and understood but I will never forgive myself. You will always be part of my heart, and I know that if someday I see two pink lines again, it will be you coming back to me. Im 16 and I knew there was no way I could support a child. I feel she was a girl. The 'pro-choice' movement argues that a woman should have a choice to keep . Im not financially free..and my boyfriend said he will literally kill me if I decide to keep the baby. I have seen God cry when rocking little babies in His big loving arms. i struggle deeply with wanting to try again. Chapter Headings: I can hear your voice And He chose me to teach you about LOVE! We done the best we could at the time, and thats all we can do. Top human rights organizations are calling on the United Nations to intervene over the destruction of abortion rights in the US.. Published by Family Friend Poems November 2008 with permission of the author. Do I honor my heart and have another sweet lamb, potentially subjecting this human to another absentee parent who secretly resents their existence- OR- do I get the abortion. It was beautiful. And because I am one, I made the right decision. This is me right now,I dont know what to do its so hard. We talked all weekend, tried finding ways to make it work but we both knew it wasnt the time because of so many factors, the big ones being my health and finances. Im struggling with this right now. Help us build the most popular collection of contemporary poetry on the internet! SUBSCRIBE: $1 for 3 months. April S., New Jersey. It all means the same thing. I move into the mini-counseling session with your dad, and we are firm on our decision. I will terminate in 3 days. I wish I could have kept you, but I know our lives wouldnt have been what you deserve. Its so irresponsible of me i know, but i dont want him to feel like Im trying to use this new baby as a way to rekindle our relationship that in reality was not that good. I wanted an abortion but my boyfriend wanted us to keep the baby. Its been two years since my abortion and I always think about that little heart beat. Its been really hard. So thank you, next week Im going for it, as difficult as it is, as much as I want this child and already love him/her I have to be realistic and also ask, what kind of life would I be offering this child. The dad is eh. Im just lost. Not as alone because feeling my baby every night move around gives me hope. I moved to another state, finished my undergrad (with a newborn) in teaching and even completed grad school also in teaching (with a toddler at the time). On the day of the appointment I cried so much I couldnt get myself to do it and as time went on I decided to keep him. My husband and i split up a few months ago but have been seeing eachother on and off during that time. These letters are an appeal to all who read them to choose life. Sending love to all of you going through this situation . I was pretty much pressured to become pregnant by my boyfriend at the time (now very ex). ? I did regret it but I cant imagine hows my life would had been if I didnt do it. Jocelyn Miller is a Montessori teacher in San Francisco who spends her weekdays supporting the growth, development, and independence of young children. I wish I wouldve bought her plan b or made sure she was taking her birth control but those options are completely out of reach now. Im so fearful I dont know what to do. But like you said, when i see those two pink lines again, i know it will be my baby coming back to me. I support your decision and Im here no matter what. In the moment I feel I should be appreciative, but for the first time, I feel angry about my body, my choice. Cant, wont someone just tell me what to do?! I know the abortion has made me realise how much of an amazing mum I am going to be but I am also so desperate to be a mummy and the loss in my gut cant be put into words. Maybe you feel as if your world has been turned upside-down. Labor would begin, usually within 12 hours, and the baby would be expelled. I have a 13 year old with my boyfriend and we live together. Abortion - Pro Life - Letter From an Unborn Child Letter from an unborn child As falling rain is the tears of God for the blood spilled of the unborn children that covers the hands of the human race. It hurts the relationship with my husband, and we are about to be separated as we cannot communicate anymore. I want to keep the baby but then i feel like maybe i should get an abortion and give myself this chance to truly start over and fresh and cut ties with him other than coparenting. He estimates that over 500 babies have been saved because of his efforts in utilizing the aforementioned piece. We have only one flight of stairs, but I must have stood and then sat at least twenty times, unsure how to greet him. My parents would have had to raise the child on the other side of the country and I knew I wouldnt have been able to bear being away from it. I can identify , however the thought of another pregnancy scared me.. so I never wanted another child.. after this..This was 28 years later, I am in the same boat currently. I feel like its hard to find forums where women arent either all regret or all confidant/fine with their decision. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. I commend you for making that choice. Im sending love your way, dear one. Everyone had always said about decisions like this that you need to be 100% sure either way but I wasnt sure either way at all. I am 29, and I had a medical abortion at 6 weeks on December 6th of this year. Just a few days before my 22nd birthday. My baby fever was at an all time high I was even looking at baby clothes. I had an abortion 6 years ago at 41 years old and was the one and only time to have a child I always wanted. My name is also Ashley and im also at the 10 year mark. Take care. I also didnt want to be a single mum of someone who did not want the child. I was one l with you. Love to each of you xxxxxxxxx. What if I still had no money, no stable place to live? You deserve the acceptance and tolerance of a choice that is yours and yours only. How I wish I was brave enough to shrugged off the opinion of other people,my friends and family. Anything further than 6 weeks and I could not have possibly stood firm on my decision. I told him to not come at all and I would be fine. I had an abortion two years ago and I regret it in some ways, but in others I am massively grateful I did it. I couldnt talk to him about keeping it because he would panic and and say it wasnt plausible anytime I showed attachment. But the six-week deadline contrasts starkly with early American abortion law, where the procedure was legal until "quickening"the first time a mother feels the baby kick, which can happen . But I dont want an abortion.. its heartbreaking ? I was accepted into a Masters program the day before. She / he would have been 9 years old. Every day I feel like a monster. I will be 37 years old and have had previous abortions but after this miscarriage (I never had one before), fear that I will never conceive again came across me. And each month, when it decided to, my period came. Except for some personal references her letter is reproduced in full. And then we came back home. I am going through the same exact thing you are. nothing was ever the same between us. Reading this story and the comments gave me some of the comfort I needed. The abortionist, he explains, after draining the uterus of the amniotic fluid that was protecting the child, inserts a claw-like instrument into the womb. Its a hard decision, Hi there Im in the same situation, dont know what to do Im so sick ? My boyfriend was with me when I took the test. Babies need around the clock care for decades; they are nothing like pets. Marni Fults. Im Ill never be sure if I made the right decision, but Im financially incompetent right now. Have you done it? Thank you for sharing your story, I made a promise to myself my decision was not in vain and Im almost done with my bachelors degree. I didnt want to do this. I cry all the time and I dont think Ill ever stop. Your dad talks about how hes an alcoholic, out-of-work barista. Its not being selfish if you think about it deeper. Rapid thoughts flooded my brain. How do you know? I pull out the test and show him the two pink lines. I instantly regretted it I changed my mind the day of my surgery but the nurse said I may have a miscarriage because I took the pill the day before . I know my baby deserves a life I couldnt of given her now or at that time and I know one day she will come back to me, I get excited when i think about meeting her finally one day when we are both ready, I wish I had support here so I could cry to someone who gets it, Im 23 and I had my abortion at 5 weeks and three days in April. I worry everyday about what y child will be like when he is here, how y decision is going to have an impact on the people around me, on those closesest to me. Thanks again for this though, I wish you the best and its great to know I am not alone. Your state requires that one of your parents be told of your decision 48 hours before your abortion. According to The Mirror, a mother explained how she would be relieved if her third child died in their sleep because she was too afraid to get an abortion when she was pregnant as the pregnancy . I have three healthy children 21,17 and 13 from a previous marriage. Having an abortion allowed me to live my life and fulfil my dreams but I did become depressed over it and the stigma of having one can be really hurt you. But then, Im scared that I will have to raise a child by myself. I wish I could talk to someone who gets it so much :,( also cate I hope your ok and you and your husband sorted things out. I miss my baby every day. I dont know if hes being dramatic or not but he thinks we will lose our home because we are barely making ends meet with one in daycare. It's a first-person account of a single mom who had an abortion - and nearly died - just two years after abortion became legal across the United States. Im so torn and feel so alone. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. I am with someone now and he is lovely. A few days later I had a surgical abortion. A letter from an unborn baby: fHi mom!, how are you?, I am doing just fine thanks. Although your husband is not supportive now, he no doubt will grow to love your little child. Listen to her fears and help her conquer them one by one. I already have a little one year old and the thoughts of having to go through it all again, deal with the depression and anxiety that I still havent healed from. The subject presents itself fairly often and I am at a loss. Even my close friends dont know this time. I dont want to let you go. Im 21, and I was 7 weeks pregnant last week but decided to terminate, after much deliberation. I loved you, my first, my only." The afternoon I found out I was pregnant with you was just like any other day waiting for my period: I was late. I still was no where near ready for how much my life would have to change. Our relationship has been a roller coaster from start to now. Im mad as hell (still) that we took steps responsible steps steps that have to be repeated! We have only been together 8 months though. I wanted it to be beautiful and for us both to be so happy but the day I told him his first words were you have to abort it the way his face was was like I ripped his whole life from under him it wasnt a face of being scared to be a dad it was a face that only a person who had a secret would make I cant understand him because we clearly had a lot of sex that was unprotected how could we not feel like this would happen eventually I just dont understand at all he knows that I love him so he started to say things like Im selfish for wanting to bring a child into this world he doesnt want he grew up without a dad and I wouldnt understand, he said if I have this baby it will pull us further apart and he will never be able to look at me he said I was a liar because I have told him Im down for him and thats not being down for him. I read this the night before my appointment for my abortion. I opted for the surgical procedure because I was told it would be the quickest. We sit in silence for a little while, then I ask him to sit next to me, and he does, all the while looking surprised. I cant share any of this with him. I know I made the right decision, but seeing him with his kids now breaks my heart bc he didnt want the one with me right now. These letters are an appeal to all who read them to choose life. I feel so alone, I have to carry this burden every day. It wasnt the right time and the best way to move forward is by working to build a life in which you can raise a child in the future. I support her no matter what her decision is but ultimately I feel like she is too young to make the rest of her life set and stone.